Toughing it out, sort of…

I almost drank yesterday.  I had a really bad day at work, and was desperate to apply liquid salve to my bruised and smarting ego.  If my partner hadn’t been home, I am almost certain I would have had a drink.  Instead, I ate too many chocolate covered almonds.   She made dinner, and I went to bed early.

This morning, I woke up early with a clear head, and knew exactly what I needed to do with my work situation.  I sent the email I needed to send, essentially reigning in my ego for the time being, and I felt much better.  May be a post for another time, but it’s hard to imagine such a big ego living inside someone with such low self-esteem.  One of my idiosyncrasies, I guess.  When I’m unsure, I over-state to such a degree that I feel my neck stretched across the guillotine, and I wait for my head to be chopped off.

Anyway, I didn’t drink, and I’m glad I didn’t make today worse than yesterday by doing something I would have regretted so deeply.  Today is day 422.

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2 Responses to Toughing it out, sort of…

  1. ainsobriety says:

    Congratulations. Those are big decisions.
    Chocolate covered almonds are always right.


  2. Liz Brower says:

    I’m glad you didn’t drink! There have been so many dark nights followed by shiny mornings, why is that? I don’t know but I am grateful for it. And kudos on sending the email. That must have been hard.


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