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Relief, guilt and shame

I’ve been at home for 3 days since my grandma’s funeral.  The tears have dried up, and I spent yesterday working on cleaning up our back patio, and then we went to a movie last night, which I thoroughly enjoyed.  … Continue reading

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One Decision

I’m sitting here on this New Year’s day thinking about how one decision made on 9/7/2014 changed the trajectory of the rest of my life.  Where would I be right now if I had continued drinking?  I’d probably be at … Continue reading

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Looking back on the year

I’ve been taking time off from work for the last 10 days and I have about 2 weeks left.  When I was drinking,  this much time off would have made me a little crazy, but I’m really enjoying it this … Continue reading

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I’ve been struggling.  I feel like I’m pushing everyone away.  My grandmother is the one person in this world who has always loved me.  She’s the one person whose love I never doubted, and she’s slipping away from me, a … Continue reading

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Toughing it out, sort of…

I almost drank yesterday.  I had a really bad day at work, and was desperate to apply liquid salve to my bruised and smarting ego.  If my partner hadn’t been home, I am almost certain I would have had a … Continue reading

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1 Year

Today marks 1 year to the day since I gave up alcohol.  It’s a decision that has changed how I view myself and others.  How have things improved?  I have become better at dealing with stress and pain and no … Continue reading

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Alcoholic-Schmalcoholic

I ran across this from http://thesoberschool.com/drinking-problem If you’re regularly drinking more than you intend to, and it’s making you miserable, then yes, you might well be dependent on alcohol. It is not really about how much you drink, it’s how … Continue reading

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